a moment in time

i cherish my evening walks with momma and our bundle of joy!

jean-loup in my novel the girl with no shadow (a sequel to chocolat) is a boy who loves his cameras and carries them everywhere he goes while taking pictures of everything he can find, like cats in the cemetery.

vianne says "his habit of watching everything through the viewfinder of his camera is slightly disconcerting; it's as if he is trying to distance himself from the world outside, to find in the tiny digital screen a simple, sweeter reality." it makes me think how the closer you get to this ideal image with more clarity, more detail, better lighting- the more you distance yourself from what is actually in front of you and the true nature of things.

 i can't help but think photos are skewed as soon as you look through the lens. you are immediately separated from the reality and "the now". sometimes i think spending hours to make something ordinary beautiful is unjust. it's almost deceit and plain trickery. it just simply isn't so. not to mention the allusion we weave after a photo is taken to edit it into perfection. i don't have a problem with beauty but is there such a thing as false beauty? when are we just being fooled? does it even matter? i almost have this nagging need for truth in things but is there even truth to find...

then there are photos that are edited to create an emotional response (my favorite). i can't say i don't enjoy those. but i still feel the more we want to capture a moment through our lens the more we are taken away from the experience. but maybe we enjoy it in a different way? or maybe is that the price we pay for a moment in time captured. we all know there is no gain without loss.

i guess i am asking why can't things just be ordinary?

why are we obsessed with making every moment enhanced and beautiful and appealing. but maybe that's the point, no one would care to look at it otherwise. beautiful and appealing things we all know are attractive. and i agree, but sometimes i crave the ugly, the plain, the dull, and the true nature of things at times and i'm hoping with enough practice we can find beauty in that.

with that i am finding a greater love for photography and day dream of having my own fancy camera to enhance the tiny, miniscule things often over looked that i find beautiful. i guess the above was my take on the negative side i can't help but think. or maybe i'm just rambling?

* this entirely also relates to this blog and the need for me to be truthful as much as i can and not sell my soul for "views" and the like, if you know what i mean. also here's to blogging and trying not to sell my private life and be a slave to social media to get some kind of response. as kathryn budig says: aim true!

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it is amazing how complete is the delusion that beauty is goodness.
-  tolstoy